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Wouldn’t it be great if it worked?

Wow, August was a long time ago and strangely it does just seem like yesterday.

School I suppose should be at the top of the priorities, thus.. (Sorry Nat.)

The last couple of months have flown by, getting to the business I should have started a year back, I am just about on course for my January exams now, I am taking the grand total of 7 exams, comparing that to last year’s 1 at the same time its getting rather stressful. (Don’t worry the other 6 are retakes.)

September was certainly a turning point for me, I suddenly realised, “Heck! I’ve got 8 months now, that’s it..”, actually not becoming what your deepest aspirations are is certainly a great motivator. I guess I am lucky that I do know what I want to be and I have done since such an early age, this means that I have ‘worked’ towards it, well behind the computer desk away from the hellish confines of the school classroom. I am now doing about a chapter of maths work a week and will have to continue this if I have any hope of getting through the entire A-Level in a year, (I am currently doing Core Mathematics 1 & 2 as well as Mechanics 1, for January, then having to do Core Mathematics 3 & 4 as well as Mechanics 2, for June), and taking the places that I have been fortunate enough to be offered.

Brings me nicely on to University, I applied back in October, before I went off to India, (more of that to come actually), about a month later and I’ve now got 6 offers, does quite seem real though that even with my current results I have these, I mean everything is still way up in the air, but I suppose it’s great that they are there and that they are a serious mixture, I will list them purely for archival purposes:

1. Nottingham Trent - 240 Points (CCC)
2. Liverpool - 300 Points (BBB)
3. Loughborough - 280 Points (BBC)
4. Coventry - 240 Points (CCC)
5. Aston - BBC
6. Northumbria - 240 Points (CCC)

To me those offers aren’t half bad, achievable at that, I have already been to Nottingham Trent, Liverpool and Coventry. The inequality shows my feelings towards each; Liverpool < Trent > Coventry, thus I still have to go to Aston and Loughborough which I should hopefully be doing between now and March.

Suppose that’s about it on the whole Uni/school front, just have to keep on kicking my ass into doing the work for the rest of the year and I may have my foot in the door of my future.

Friends and stuff..

When I arrived back at school in September I noticed something. A few people have left. Going into the common room now is like a ghost town, no-one is there not even people that you know. Last year there was a solid gang of about 30 people that used to hang about most days simply because we could, I did a rough calculation a few weeks about that around half the darn year have got up and left, either that or have resat, moved or now do the social life killer known as Business Studies.

I suppose it’s not quite as bad as I make it out to be, I mean I still have a solid group of mates that I hang about with, people from my subjects that invariably trudge down to the common room at the same time as me, but its not like it was last year; constantly being talked at by Zain, felt up by Jamie and freaked out by Joe. But oh well. That’s life I guess.

Seems strange to say this but its been past a year now with me and Natalie, almost a year and a month now, we went and watched the rugby at Twickenham, (unfortunately England lost, but oh well, cant have everything), then we took the train to Waterloo and I tried to look manly going on the eye. I managed to fail spectacularly. But it was an experience going on it at night and if anyone that’s scared of it during the daytime, it doesn’t get much better at night, I promise you. We then meandered up to Leicester Square and had a meal in the basement of this rather nice Italian Restaurant, was great. Walked back through the streets of London to Waterloo and were back home. Was a good night.

That’s about it for now, I will add a bit more later..

Today I was filling out yet more forms, about the 6^th one in the last week, this one was a little different, it contained the field addressing aspirations and the future. This kind of scared me a little, yeah sure like everyone else I have dreams, but I realized just how distant they seem. With my exams starting next week I am beginning to wonder whether I will join the rest of middle England with a job that just about pays for my life, a mortgage and the kids eventually when they come along, or whether or not this little dream of mine will become a reality some day..

I don’t know exactly what others peoples take on this is, does everyone actually have an aspiration? Is everyone destined to fail or succeed? And the main question of why we actually have these thoughts at all seems to keep cropping up on me.. Is it to give us something to vaguely focus upon whilst dragging ourselves through life in the eventual conquest of this one dream, or the distraction that everybody needs once in a while to stop themselves from being dragged about and realize that time on this world is limited, limited to a very short space of time in the grand scheme of things.

Anyway, Ill leave it here, with one question.

What’s your aspiration?

Today up on the bench is freedom, I want to discuss exactly what freedom is, why so many of us want it and at present how free we really are..

Ok, I feel freedom is only a word, I feel its a term to clearly define what every human, every creature and every inanimate object deserves as its basic rights. I mean if no-one can own a humna, then why are humans allowed to own animals? Is it because we have to look after them? Then why dont we own our children? And maybe we do own our children, but until what point do they essentially become free? All of these are rhetorical questions obviously, however they do raise a fair point of how and why we feel the need to impose our own terms on absolutely everything.

Why do we own the table in the front room? This is a question I would like answered, most would say.

Because I bought it with my own money damnit! Its mine, no-one elses and whats all this stuff about trees needing to be free hippy!

So that’s whats its come down to again. Money? Ok, so why cant I go out and buy dead bodies, as essentially thats all that table is? Indecency maybe, and kinda because its gross. But I feel that the freedom of things, espically humans is very different to alot of people suggest.

Over this weekend I got rather angry, yet again. Over the past 3 years I have watched a number of anti-bush videos, that suggest he is a very different man to what the majority believe to be true. These videos suggest he wants to crush a large segment of the globes population, all through his “War on Terror”. These videos suggest that he, and his regime masterminded the terrible attacks in September 2001. To be honest, after watching a number of these videos, gathering alot of different opinions I can see there point. Everything these videos bring up is pure fact, no half-truths, all fact. Personally I think that these videos deserve a slot on prime-time Television, as they showcase exactly how big the problem is and how little we can do about it alone.

This brings me back to freedom. Freedom is whatever you make it I believe, if you think we have freedom now, then great. But to be honest I feel freedom is the right to say anything you wish, which at present is not quite correct, Treason Laws anybody? I feel that while we are still using Petrol in our cars and still seeing any member of the Bush Family in the White House then im afraid to say this world is not free, its a product of alot of peoples rather twisted fantasies. But heck, what can we do?

Ok, back to the whole does time start thing. As stated in my Universal Theory article, I am a strong believe in the fact that time is infinitestimal, (1 over infinity, things get smaller and smaller but never reach 0). Also because of this, I think that the universe never started and that those two are constants. The only two constants in existance. Alot of people however have strongly disagreed with me on this one though.

Alot of people I have spoken to already on this issue had never really even contemplated the fact that things cant have a start, they just expected that as a given. And when I reasoned with them explaining my whole universal theory, they were slightly bemused. Others had a bit more to say, mainly that I was crazy and that God will kill me one day. But a few came up with entirely valid points. I wont bore you with the details of these, but they were mainly to do with the existance of a God like figure, a Heaven like area and the fact that everything must have a beginning. However I was ready for this. I asked them one simple question.

Find a flaw in my theory? You know what the answer was, they couldn’t. I was mightly pleased, they then came back with answers like well my plan also has no holes in it. Examples of “their” theories included The Big Bang, Religion and The Matrix to name but a few. I managed to pick holes in everyone of these. I was mightly pleased with myself.

Anyway, enough about my glory.

PS. I am in no way against religion or any of the other theories, this is just my personal opinions on the universe, personally although im a not connected with any religions I believe they do play a vital part in life as they provide a structure for many, one that teachs them correct values which are not always found elsewhere.

The creation of the universe is something that has baffled the philosophers of the ages for many thousands of years. Its caused many a rift between the various geek community throughout the globe and strangely enough after all this time how far have we got? Not very to be honest. There is the whole “Big Bang” theory, all the religious stuff and then theres what only the clinically insane believe, The Matrix, I cringe as I remember believing parts in my youth. Within this article I will hopefully put forward a logical explanation of the existence of the universe according to the rather warped mind of a 16 year old geek from London.

Ok, so lets start with the Big Bang. I agree that it happened. The evidence that everything is radiating from a central point is a little too strong for me to just brush off as if its mindly twoddle rattled off by a few children in a park somewhere, back to the story. This is a basis for one of the major parts of this theory. I have no idea how exactly scientists worked out that everything was growing but I like the sound of it so im going to run with it.

The next part is time. Time as we know it is a number that is constantly incrementing, without slowing or speeding up and its seemingly endless. Everyone is ok that time seems to have a start, but when that is, is not known, many believe at the same time as the Big Bang. Ok lets warp all of this, lets say time never had a start, is that really so hard to comprehend? We can see something never having a end, why not never having a start? Ive searched high and low for a word to describe this, the best I can do at present is, “the reverse of infinity”. So if time never started and has always existed, then something must have been there for it to keep time over, very true. The universe. What im saying is that the universe never started. Im saying that the universe is a constant. Its just always been there. Its like time, it hasnt ever started.

This brings me back to the Big Bang. I said earlier that I thought that it existed. This is indeed correct. Now I bet your really confused and saying, how the.. Well, lets just think about the rate of expansion of the universe for a minute. I dont know if its slowing, but at sometime I think it has to. And when that moment hits, be it in 10 billion years or whatever, everthings going to turn right back around and gradually get closer and closer together until, BOOM! The Big Bang. Well more of A Big Bang. One of many. You get?

This is my theory, that there is nothing else, that time and the universe are the only constants, there is nothing more or less, there isnt questions like but how many times has it repeated? Because the answer is, there isnt one, no-one started counting because there wasnt a time to start counting. I think that this answers most of the questions that the Big Bang asked of non-believers. I ask anyone to come up with a better model. Its hard.

All right, for a number of months I was blogging under the old site, it was ok, but damn when I looked back through the mess of posts I had made it was boring and pretty uninspiring, so, here I am. I had a little rethink as to what exactly I liked about blogging and why I did it. I did it to express my views on the world and mainly to have a little rant where nobody else could tell me, (bar the damn governments), to edit my words.

From this I have concluded that a new blog be born. A blog about my thoughts, I do seem to have rather alot of them, a blog that I may actually spend some time writing on and even some time designing. That brings me rather neatlyish onto the subject of this little window, “An Idiots Guide to Unversal Theories”. Alot of the time I spend staring into space my brain engages in some kind of interlectual thought, its usually about the bigger picture and why exactly we exist and how it is that it happened. This space is going o be for just that, my changing beliefs on the world, thats about it I guess.

Alex, The Idiot of this Guide.